Tea With Me: 1st May, 2021 Saturday
2nd Pfizer 10 days ago
What a strange year.
Yes, I have fear. New fear from all the fear I had embedded. I know now my fear is fuel for me. To move. To do. To live. To breathe.
So why am I so still? Lethargic. Where the Muse? Why can’t I wish to sing?
In that school gym so many people. The uniforms directing through theme park lines to booths of injectors and then we sat on bleachers waiting to see if newly loaded bodies might say, “Fuck No!!!” This new way of telling our cell warriors to be enguard for the new invader stalking us might tip us over and there would be help in case.
I sat with Husband on those bleachers aware my body was adrenalined. I watched all those people, all those people in a gym. That I was in. My fear is now attuned to all those people.
I have been at home and mask when I have to go. I have been at home because I can. Yes, I am that ilk. And Guilt about that sears me everyday. I have been at home and mask because it keeps me safe, because it keeps others safe and because I feel responsible for my fellow humans no matter what they think.
And I chose vaccine.
It is my civil right to choose these things. And it is my civic duty as a citizen not only of this here USA, but as a human citizen.
Now past my choice to be shot, masked, and enhomed, outside the cacaphony coming from the right about putting on a mask as yet another percieved infringement on their oh so beleaguered civil rights is downright deafening. They who stormed the US Capital after a rage stew pot rally fomented by that BatShit Narcissist using them by treasonous riot to attempt upending a free and fair election. They who bear and bare arms so freely. They who march in full Southern daylight wearing costumes of the Clown Klan whose most notable and ignoble activity is to lynch fellow humans with a different skin tone. They who support and listen to the Network whose protocol is to build fire from the shreds of malformed inuendo into fullblown conspiracies whipped to inferno insemenation of their Zealot ignorant rage at anything sourced in science telling them they are part of the human community and as such they should wear a friggin mask and get vacc’d to save themselves and their loved ones and…
Ah and there is the Rub. Because after Loved Ones in that list of those we humans all bear mask responsibility to keep safe comes the Ones they Hate.
Hate.
We have such Hate. Among us. We are Humans and we Hate.
So tell me, where the Fuck are your infringements? You can scream your Hate on any Platform and you do and noone comes to chain you until you go too Damn far.
This morning here in Santa Fe the Sun lights this desert scape with shimmer gold. Pink Earth pillows my steps as I walk to shed this Fear of all that is to change.
For change is here and shifting all of It.
I know not where to Move and therefore choose to Still.
A headlighted Deer does this too.
Yes, I have Fear. Chances are, you do too.
Tea was Green.
Ta.
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