Tea With Me: 27th March, 2020 Friday
Lung Rabies Rage
For all my Global Peeps
“You want Ventilators & Masks from the Federal Government’s Reserves to treat your citizens? Well, Governors have to treat me well, it’s a two-way street.”
President Trump,
March 24, 2020
Today, I woke to reports that Andrew Cuomo, who has begged for 20 to 30 thousand ventilators, has been told by the Leader of the Free World that his projected need is not credible.
Trump has openly said that he will support blue states only if they stop criticizing him.
He is now withholding life support as a way of manipulating support.
He has weaponised the Virus.
Literally, he is threatening certain death if people are openly critical of him.
I am so full of Rage my tears are melting the table I weep on.
I cannot speak to those I love right now.
Never in the history of this country have we had a President who in a time of crisis, threatens to withhold aid from the States in need relative to their opposition of him.
Not even during the Civil War. The South declared itself a separate sovereignty altogether, the Confederacy with its own governance and declared War on the North. And then the Confederacy attacked Fort Sumpter. Lincoln’s objective for four years was to bring the country back to Union.
Ironically, Lincoln’s political party was the newly formed Republican.
My inherently empathic nature without losing my mind to grief cannot continually upload the horrible accounts of poor Italy’s devastation and the individual accounts being written by those who have experienced the terrible hammer this Virus can hit with either from personal or professional experience.
I can only deal with my reaction to this from my political and societal perspective. Another form of self protection. Forgive me.
I had two interactions with old dear friends today. I delivered my need for boundaries brutally to both. I apologize to both of you.
In writing a response to a final pm from one of them, I found some trail of my severe reaction. I told the other friend that I could nnot rationally engage and that I had to write this out.
Forgive me for subjecting you to my current form of therapy
We here in the US are spread over a vast and disparate territory. Our physical landscape has different climates and ecosystems. Our politics are so divided right now, thanks to this current Leadership. How individualised each region and/or suburb and/or city and/or rural scape experiences the threats of this Virus are widely varied in the challenges they face. We are badly fractured and frightened. We have no cohesion and no rallying point. We have been setup to see each other as aggressor. And Trump keeps blowing us up.
In response to a Trump post I made last night, a well meant personally concerned comment made by a European friend about urging me to launch into an extreme isolation mode was full of fear and personal concern for my well being. It was not about observations of Trump from a European perspective and I deleted it. I love and respect this person deeply but felt that on the semi public format that is my “friends only” FB page, I felt her comments had the potential for those other reader FB friends already terrified personally to feel even more helpless given how little cohesion we in this country are experiencing from our Leadership. The deletion was not a personal attack. It was an act of removing more fuel for Fear. We are already too full of it.
My personal upset about the Virus is less about my own personal ability to survive it given the overall condition of my health. Its more about the use of it by Trump to further destroy our democracy. My political posts are about encouraging people to wake up to the reality of what he is. Every Trump supporter is part of My America too, I am willing to respectfully engage any of them who are inspired to comment in opposition to my posts, in a discussion of why they might recenter their perspective. I am not personally afraid of the Virus as an assault to my Life but I am fearful and grieving the further damage Trump has done to My America by denying its existence initially, restricting our ability to test, and hording equipment needed to support us.
And today the revelation that he is using his power to supply or deny the individual regions’ resource needs to preserve massive numbers of lives his denial of the Virus initially has created has quite literally blown the doors off my Calm. It is full blown in Your Face Fucking EVIL perpetrated by the President of the United States against his own people.
I am not rational right now. I know it.
If you try to engage me personally, I may not be the loving, patient, accepting Soul most of you have come to trust in me.
Its not about you right now.
Its about the bigger Monster in our midst and it really isn’t the Virus.
I am still here and I will reset. I promise, I am working hard on it.
Love and Light to all of you,
Tea was Black and Creamed
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